Don’t loose hope

I have written about my struggles with the end of a school year previously, but I feel the need to share my experiences with you all again. I experience a lot of anxiety when my teachinf position is shuffled around. I have been teaching for four years and I have never once had the same classroom or schedule. It is stressful because special Ed has to be flexible around all the other schedules and they are always being shuffled. Clearly, I am stressed at this moment! 

I may have no idea how next year is going to turn out, but I do now that whatever happens will turn out for the best. This is what I have learned throughout my struggle with anxiety. Even though I feel hopeless, that doesn’t mean I will always feel that way. It will all pass. We have to cross into night to reach the day. 

This is what I continue to remind myself as I fight to win the battle against anxiety! 

I love drawing!

It feels so good to be drawing again! I just felt like I didn’t have time anymore, but I have actually be finding that it doesn’t take up too much time. When I am lost in my head space everything else disappears. My anxiety. My stress. My schedule. My concerns. It all disappears as the picture on my page comes to life. It is fantastic therapy! I have been finding that I am less anxious after I have been using my creativity, and that is huge progress! YAY! 

Here is my latest little creation! 

  

Fantastic day!

Learning how to paint was really fun today!! I was at my instructor’s/co-worker’s house for several house while she explained art theories and paint colors. Since I normally draw with only pencil, painting is an entirely new medium. She had me create a project that dropped paint down the edge of the canvas from the top, and then the side, to make a grid. The squares that were formed the  had to be painted in various shades of the same type of colors. However, the same colors could not be next to each other. What I came up with is a little rough still, but in progress! Check it out!