While, overall, I have been having a mostly anxiety free week, I have been experiencing low levels of anxious undercurrent about starting up this new school year. 

The first three days of school are for us teachers to be trained on various changes and procedures and then the kids come Thursday. 

My anxiety has been circling around the trainings. I couldn’t figure out why until tonight. My first year teaching I ended up having a slight panic attack during the staff meeting. I clearly remember having all 30 some staff members sitting in a circle with our principal talking about procedures. I vividly remember getting very hot and then my stomach feeling like it was going to dispel my breakfast. I spent nearly 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to calm down.

This experience was 4 years ago, and nothing like that has happened again, but obviously the feeling of apprehension still lingers. However, this time around I will have my husband on the administration staff so I will be able to have his presence as a comfort in case I were to experience an attack. 

I am going to stay positive and remember the great things that are going on this year! Anxiety is not invited! 

15 thoughts on “Confession

  1. You got this… Piece of cake… Your in sit, listen, maybe even talk. Then your out…deep breaths, happy thoughts.. It’s only a staff meeting… Been there done that….they probably have back to school nerves too….

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  2. Good that you traced the roots of the feelings back to the previous memory from four years ago. Do you ever tap (EFT)? It’s a great way to clear stuff like that. (There is a post on my blog about EFT but I don’t want to put a link here – it seems rude! There’s info and some useful links there, though, if it’s of interest.)
    Good luck! You will cope with this meeting, I am sure.

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