Anxiety Disorder and Conception

OH. MY. GOODNESS. This wonderful anxiety disorder of mine has decided that it is going to be involved in my conception process. My husband and I have started trying to have our first baby, and literally all I can think about is whether or not we are pregnant! I feel extra impatient (and slightly anxious) about whether or not we have a bun in the oven.

I am also experiencing anxiety in a different way now that we have begun trying to conceive. Yesterday, when I felt anxious, I cried a lot and that is not normally how I deal with my anxiety. I am also overly sensitive to every cramp/butterfly in my tummy/indigestion that I feel and I automatically want it to be a symptom of carrying a little baby.

I have noticed that I am getting anxious when I think about the possibility of being unable to get pregnant. I keep thinking about how the egg is only there for 24 hours, and if my husband and I don’t “do it” at the right time, we will miss our opportunity. It is actually a very stressful situation to try and reason out in my head. It is very strange because I spent many, many years being incredibly anxious about pregnancy and trying my best to avoid it. It truly was a huge fear of mine until about two years ago. Now, I am anxious about not being able to get pregnant. It’s very strange how that works out.

I am hoping that in the upcoming months, and into pregnancy, that my anxiety will not keep me from enjoying this process. I want to be able to soak in every moment and be joyful, no matter what happens. I am going to continue to push forward in spite of my, and remember that everything is in God’s hands. Also, I need to remember that I am in control of my anxiety. It is NOT going to control me.

14 thoughts on “Anxiety Disorder and Conception

  1. I’m sorry this has been such a trigger for anxiety! That’s tough, but you got this! I guess focus on the positive for now– you are very aware of your body (so you will catch anything that goes wrong quickly) and it sounds like your husband is a good support. Oh yeah, and God definitely has it all in his hands πŸ™‚

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  2. So sorry to hear that the anxiety is on the rise. Try to remember to just breathe. I know how corny it sounds, but it has been a life-saver for me. God’s blessings upon you and your husband today and every day!

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  3. This is your first child? You live alone? Not to be indelicate, but now that you’ve decided the time is right, it is time to let go, huddle up, light some candles, and set the chandelier to shaking. Think about it–making babies is one of the few things you get to do in life where having to try again and again (and twice on Saturday) is a reward. When my wife and I made the decision, at the age of 31, I was all about “after 17 years of this FINALLY a bonanza of unprotected sex, a festival of fornication, a…what word works with “humping?”—and hey, no worries, no condoms.” I mean: woooohooooo, right? Instead of taking it all seriously, just give yourself to playing like a libertine, and you’ll be knocked up in no time. And it doesn’t hurt to think of this: once that baby gets here, it’s a whole ‘nother ballgame.

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  4. Maybe some of your anxiety is actually nervous excitement which can be wonderful as you anticipate and wait for an egg hatching. Try not too put so much pressure on yourself about getting pregnant, that little sperm and egg will meet in time. Think of this time as a wonderful time of anticipation and excitement and how you are your man are getting ready to start a family. I agree, tell yourself, you won’t let anxiety take over a wonderful time in your life.

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  5. No matter what happens, you will be a mom. If you’re ready, it will happen. And if you don’t get pregnant in the next couple of years, there are so many other options! (I’ve been re-watching private practice so clearly I am an expert)

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