I am apologize that my posts have not been as positive as they have been in the past, but I am really going through a difficult time in my life. I had been doing a good job emotionally healing from the miscarriage, but with Mother’s Day coming up, I am slipping back into a negative mindset. I truly wish my little one was still here, in my tummy, to celebrate the day.
Also, I have mentioned it briefly, but my husband and I are in the middle of a move and it has been incredibly stressful. The reason behind this stress is that we found out two weeks ago that there is a 1.1 MILLION dollar lien on the house. So we have been trying to figure out what to do, and we have to move out of our home by Friday (we sold it before we knew this house had a lien). The relators have been incredible and they worked a deal with the seller of the home to let us stay there rent free for 6 months while we figured it all out. So either the IRS releases the lien or we are going to just use the house as a rental as we look for another one.
Finally, this weekend my mother-in-law decided to flip out on my husband and I about moving to a house that is “too far away”. The house is 15 minutes away from her own home, and it was all incredibly bizzare. I will say, that she does have a pretty severe mental illness so not all of her thoughts are rational, and I understand that peice, but she was incredibly hurtful. She told me that she thinks that I don’t like her, I think she is dumb, and she even told my husband that she wasted her time raising him because he doesn’t like her. It was so out of the blue that I don’t even know what to think about it. I have spent years working on our relationship and making sure she is happy. It was incredibly hurtful.this stress is just compounding and making all of this worse.
So with my anxiety all of these unknowns it has been difficult but I am working to remain positive and keep my trust in God. Thank you for letting me vent!