First let me start by saying I am blessed. I am incredibly thankful for the little life that is growing inside of me each day. It is an insane thought that I am cultivating a little human! I love it already!
Now, to the physical aspect of my pregnancy… I am sick. Throwing up. Dry heaving. Can’t eat. Constipated. Endless Heartburn. Exhausted. Pregnant. I truly never imagined pregnancy would be this hard. You know, you hear people talk, in a joking way, about first trimester and how it was awful, but you never fully understand it. I now fully understand.
These physical symptoms are starting to eat away at my emotional wellbeing. I haven’t been able to anything other than sleep and lay down in weeks. Grudgingly, I started working again after summer break, and my students are back as well now. I love my job, but it is fight to drag myself to work every day. I don’t feel like myself and I just really miss me.
I want to enjoy my pregnancy and be one of those women who love being pregnant. I know there is a miracle inside me, and I feel so guilty for not enjoying it. Most of the time I just want cry.
Thank you for letting me vent. It is comforting to know that I have all of you to lean on. ❤️