Today my emotion is guilt. I feel deeply guilty that I am not enjoying my pregnancy. I lost my first pregnancy at 6 weeks back in March and desperately have been praying for a child for several years. Now that I am pregnant, I have been feeling miserable, and even at times demoralized (i.e. peeing my self while throwing up, unable to eat, throwing up all the time, gagging all day etc). I know that all of these symptoms are a sign of a beautiful miricle taking shape inside of me, but I continue to find it difficult to be happy when all I am doing is throwing up or laying on the couch because I am too nauseous to move. These conflicting emotions have made me incredibly guilty.
Another reason why I am feeling guilty is because I have done nothing around the house , to help my husband, in nearly 10 weeks. The last time I did dishes, I ended up throwing up because it looked, and smelled disgusting. He has been doing laundry, dishes, yard work, taking care of the dogs, and cleaning while I have been laying around. Now I know I’m not just laying around. I know I am resting because growing this baby is exhausting, but I feel like he gets frustrated. He has never said anything, but it is hard to just watch and not have the energy (or stomach) to help him.
Have any of you dealt with guilt while pregnant? What are your thoughts?