Confession

While, overall, I have been having a mostly anxiety free week, I have been experiencing low levels of anxious undercurrent about starting up this new school year. 

The first three days of school are for us teachers to be trained on various changes and procedures and then the kids come Thursday. 

My anxiety has been circling around the trainings. I couldn’t figure out why until tonight. My first year teaching I ended up having a slight panic attack during the staff meeting. I clearly remember having all 30 some staff members sitting in a circle with our principal talking about procedures. I vividly remember getting very hot and then my stomach feeling like it was going to dispel my breakfast. I spent nearly 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to calm down.

This experience was 4 years ago, and nothing like that has happened again, but obviously the feeling of apprehension still lingers. However, this time around I will have my husband on the administration staff so I will be able to have his presence as a comfort in case I were to experience an attack. 

I am going to stay positive and remember the great things that are going on this year! Anxiety is not invited! 

Sleep snob!

The redeye flight my husband and I went on tonight (or morning now) wasn’t too terrible. However it was difficult to sleep! I wiggled back and fourth, and back and forth! I couldn’t find a comfortable position and I kept getting hot! LOL! I have learned that I am a “sleep snob”!
Here is my husband as he woke up as we landed! I had fun waking him up! 

  

Healing will take time

Use time to better yourself 

It will be worth it

Happy Saturday

I hope that you all have a relaxing Saturday! Today I am getting my hair done, which I always find exciting! It feels good to be able to take things slow and just relax! 

Thor is planning on taking it easy today too!  

 

It has all worked out!

i am beyond excited right now because I found out that next year I will be teaching Language Arts and Social Studies in my OWN classroom for 7th and 8th grade! I am still teaching  inclusion special education but I won’t be co-teaching anymore and I couldn’t be more thrilled! I fully support Co- teaching and I think it has the potential to be incredible, however, at my school it has not been working. I am so so so so excited that I get my own class and finally have full creative control over what goes on. 

I have been very anxious about my job for next year but it has all turned out well! I need to learn to be have patience and wait for the right time. I kept trying to force things to happen and that only created more anxiety. I just need to let it all go and let God take control. YAY!  

You are not defined by…

you are not defined by your past. No matter what has happened to you, it doesn’t mean that is who you are. You are so much more than the events that compile your past. There is no need for you to carry shame. It is a heavy burden. If you are constantly defining yourself by your shame, try to let it go today. You are talented, wonderful and strong. It is a new day and yesterday is gone. 

Define yourself by the good that you spread in this world! 

Don’t loose hope

I have written about my struggles with the end of a school year previously, but I feel the need to share my experiences with you all again. I experience a lot of anxiety when my teachinf position is shuffled around. I have been teaching for four years and I have never once had the same classroom or schedule. It is stressful because special Ed has to be flexible around all the other schedules and they are always being shuffled. Clearly, I am stressed at this moment! 

I may have no idea how next year is going to turn out, but I do now that whatever happens will turn out for the best. This is what I have learned throughout my struggle with anxiety. Even though I feel hopeless, that doesn’t mean I will always feel that way. It will all pass. We have to cross into night to reach the day. 

This is what I continue to remind myself as I fight to win the battle against anxiety! 

Good morning kisses!

Thor loves to start of his day with kisses!

Have a fantastic Wednesday! 

  

Ever wish…?

Early in the mornings, as I get ready for work, I find myself wishing I could just lay around all day like my pups. All I would have to worry about is going to the bathroom, chasing rabbits, eating, and napping. That, to me, sounds like an incredible day! 

Have a fantastic Tuesday!  

   

Focus Forward

Today may already be filled with stress and anxiety caused by the endless demands of you to-do lists. It may feel overwhelming, but I am here to tell you that you can turn it around. Even though you may have a to-do list a mile long, you can still feel at peace. 

Change your mindset. Think positive and know that you will get through it and be stronger! You can do it! Don’t give into thoughts of anger, frustration and bitterness! Flip your thoughts and take back control of your day!