And anxiety returns

As I have been sharing over the last several weeks, my husband and I are moving forward with beginning our family aka having kids! What we have been talking and praying about, is whether to foster/adopt first or have a biological child first. We had decided to pursue foster/adopting first, however, we reached a mild road block in the process. We have been placed on a waiting list and it will be several months before we actually begin foster care training. Naturally, we were disappointed, however, we revisited the discussion about having a biological child first, and after much praying and talking we have decided to go ahead with trying to get pregnant! 

Foster care is still something we are persuing, but we decided that it is finally time to jump in 100% and begin trying while we wait for training. 

My only concern is my anxiety disorder. I am terrified that once I go off my medication that my hormones will increase the intensity of my anxiety. I want my baby to be healthy and I don’t want my anxiety to get in the way.

Have any of you dealt with an anxiety disorder while pregnant? If so, how did you help yourself? 

An unexpected snag…

We have encountered a snag in our foster care process. As it turns out, there is a bit of a backup in the training in our area, and the entire process may be pushed back a few months. I have to admit that I am incredibly devastated. My husband and I were (and are) 100% in, and ready to move forward. It just is difficult that we are brought to a halt, so unexpectedly.

If you have read my blog in the last week, I have discussed how my husband and I have been praying about the decision on whether we should have our bio-baby first, or foster/adopted-child. Pushing back the foster training a few months makes me wonder if that means we should begin trying to have our bio-baby first?

These questions are so difficult and I wish making a family decisions were easier! Luckily, my anxiety is rather low, considering the situation!

Thank you for listening to my venting!

Full of Thanks

This week has been a whirlwind! Thanksgiving has been fantastic. My husband and I hosted, for our second year in a row, and I absolutely love being the host. The best part of this weekend is that I have not had any anxiety! I am so thankful that I am able to go so long without anxiety! Whoohoooo!

Also, this week, my husband and I completed our foster care paperwork, and are now waiting to schedule our first training session. We are continuing to pray about the process as we are waiting to begin. I must say, that the waiting is terrible, and we haven’t even been waiting on a child yet! MY GOODNESS!



After going through the Foster Care orientation training last night, my husband and I are both in agreeance that God is leading us to foster/adopt (which is incredibly exciting). Now, the next question we need to discuss is what we are going to do about having our own child. We agree that we want to have our own baby and adopt, however, we need to decide which comes first. Biological or adoption? 

Originally, we were going to begin trying to get pregnant in March, but if we foster/adopt first then we need to push that back. But if we do biological first, then maybe we should start trying earlier? 

These are the questions my husband and I are debating. They are huge, life-changing questions and we do not want to make a decision lightly. Thank you for all your prayers and words of wisdom. If you have any comments, please let me know!