Nothing Better

There is nothing better, in this world, than being a mother. I love tending to the needs of a tiny human, and exposing her to the joy and magic of the world around her. Creating castles out of blankets, Seeing animals in the clouds, and dancing without music!

There is beauty in the world that can only be seen through the eyes of a child, and she has reopened my eyes. She has given me a fresh energy and curiosity to see everything there is to see! I love my daughter. I love being her mom.

Since she has come into my life, she has helped me fight my anxiety. Whenever I feel my anxiety creeping up on me, she is right there (as if she knows) with a hug and kiss. When I am able to focus on her, I am able to pull myself out. It’s a beautiful thing.

here we made a reading nook out of the shower since my husband took off the door to replace it. Obviously, it was time to play while Daddy worked!

Final Days

We have reached the last full day of our road trip. It is bittersweet, because I am READY to be in my own bed, but I love all the memories we have been making and adventures we have been having! Once we get back home, we want to make sure we find adventure in our everyday life! Foster the love of nature in our daughter, continue to bond together as a family, and laugh much more often!

Today, We took another trip to Zion National Park to see the Emerald Pools! We were at the bottom of a canyon type area and the water spilled over the edge of the cliff down on us. It was incredibly beautiful.

I love being in the middle of creation and realizing that I am apart of something bigger. After going to see the Rocky Mountain National Park and Zion National Park, my husband and I have made a goal to visit all the national parks in the country! We have been to a few others, but we want to make that our Bucket List!

Whoohooo!

I Made This!!

I can’t believe I made this beautiful baby girl (obviously with God’s help, OH and my husband! ) who just turned one!! She is incredible!

I just wanted to share this with you all! ❤️

Quiet New Year’s Eve

This New Year’s Eve I am content with staying home with my husband, daughter and dogs, snuggling on the couch.

Last year’s New Year’s Eve my daughter was in the NICU, and we were just told that she had a grade 1 brain bleed. Though, now it has cleared itself and hasn’t caused any long term problems, it was one of the worst days of my life. I can remember the cold sinking feeling that washed over my body.

So this year, I’m going to hold my baby girl closely, and thank God that he blessed the year 2017.

Happy New Year, everyone! I hope 2018 is a year of fresh starts!

My World has Changed

I no longer crave fancy things, or desperately want to take off on a thrilling adventure. What I want most of all now, is time with my family. Playing in the backyard with my husband and my two month old daughter has brought me more joy than anything I could ever purchase in a store or find in a beautiful country. I still would like to have nice things and go on adventures, but I find myself realizing that all I have ever wanted is right here. My heart is full. God has given me more than I ever imagined He would, and I am beyond grateful for my blessings. I love being a wife and a mother. 

These two beautiful human beings are my world!

Why does a number define us?

Why is it that when I weigh myself, I suddenly feel completely and utterly defeated. I find myself sinking into the mentality that I am less of a woman if the number I see on the scale does not match what I perseve to be perfection. Why is it that I can stand on a scale for 30 seconds and my entire day can be ruined? Why do I allow that number define who I am as a woman? 

I weighed myself today and was devastated by the number I saw staring back at me. I lost an entire evening with my husband to anxiety and anger because of some stupid number. How ridiculous is that?!

I wish I could elequently profess that the number means nothing to me, and curse the society that created a false sense of feminine perfection. But I can’t. Although, I know, and understand, in my rational mind that weight does not define someone’s worth, I have, nevertheless, fallen victim to our society’s brainwashing. I bashfully admit that I internally idolize movie stars for their perfect shapes and flawless glamour. I have found myself wishing I could look like them, because, you’re happy if you’re skinny. Right? 

Even writing those words makes me cringe, but in the darkest recesses of my mind, perhaps it is what I think. Over the years, countless perfect bodies have been depicted on tv shows, movies, ads, and social media that my mind has come to expect this perfection out of myself, and when I have failed time and time again to atain it – I feel unworthy. I feel that my husband won’t love me as much. I won’t do as well at my job. My friends won’t want to hang out with me. No one will ever find me attractive. 

These are thoughts that so many of us share, and it has to stop. We have to know that our worth is NOT measured by the number on the scale. We can and will be loved no matter what shape we are or how many rolls we have. We have to come together and build each other up. Tell someone they are beautiful today. Even better, look in the mirror and tell that to yourself. Look at every inch of yourself and say you are beautiful. Because You Are. 

I have bangs!

It’s been years since I had bangs! I love them! 

  

First time Gardner!

As a child, I remember going to the local nursery with my parents and picking our flowers to plant in our garden. It was always a highlight for me! Now that I have my own home, and we have repainted the house, I went out and got some plants! I can’t wait to get them in the ground! 

   
 

Monsoon Season is upon Us!

Well! Monsoon season has hit Arizona! I must say that it is my favorite time of year! 

Painting

i have really enjoyed exploring my new found hobby: painting! I had my second painting lesson today and I had a fantastic time! I am really learning a lot about colors and how they mix together. 

The best part about it is that while I’m lost in my artwork, I forget about everything! No anxiety, no stress and no obsessive thoughts! It is such a relief to find such a natural remedy to anxiety! Creativity heals! What an amazing concept! I can’t wait to learn more and find out what I can do!