Why does a number define us?

Why is it that when I weigh myself, I suddenly feel completely and utterly defeated. I find myself sinking into the mentality that I am less of a woman if the number I see on the scale does not match what I perseve to be perfection. Why is it that I can stand on a scale for 30 seconds and my entire day can be ruined? Why do I allow that number define who I am as a woman? 

I weighed myself today and was devastated by the number I saw staring back at me. I lost an entire evening with my husband to anxiety and anger because of some stupid number. How ridiculous is that?!

I wish I could elequently profess that the number means nothing to me, and curse the society that created a false sense of feminine perfection. But I can’t. Although, I know, and understand, in my rational mind that weight does not define someone’s worth, I have, nevertheless, fallen victim to our society’s brainwashing. I bashfully admit that I internally idolize movie stars for their perfect shapes and flawless glamour. I have found myself wishing I could look like them, because, you’re happy if you’re skinny. Right? 

Even writing those words makes me cringe, but in the darkest recesses of my mind, perhaps it is what I think. Over the years, countless perfect bodies have been depicted on tv shows, movies, ads, and social media that my mind has come to expect this perfection out of myself, and when I have failed time and time again to atain it – I feel unworthy. I feel that my husband won’t love me as much. I won’t do as well at my job. My friends won’t want to hang out with me. No one will ever find me attractive. 

These are thoughts that so many of us share, and it has to stop. We have to know that our worth is NOT measured by the number on the scale. We can and will be loved no matter what shape we are or how many rolls we have. We have to come together and build each other up. Tell someone they are beautiful today. Even better, look in the mirror and tell that to yourself. Look at every inch of yourself and say you are beautiful. Because You Are. 

Elle Time! 

I really enjoyed my day of being home by myself! I cuddled with my dogs, worked out, watched Gilmore Girls and Avengers and ended the day With painting! It was a blast! These last few days of summer are sacred so I am going to fill them with my favorite activities! However, in spite of partaking in my favorite activities, I must say that the best part of my day was that I didn’t have an ounce of anxiety! Nothing! And it was beautiful! 

   
    
    
    
 

Time to Kick my Butt!

OK! Even though I have been having an amazing year of healing, I have gained some weight… around 10 pounds. UGH! I know it could be worse, but I am not liking how I am feeling with the extra weight I am carrying around. So, I am “super-charging” my workouts and have added a few things in my garage gym! A few of the items are a little “ghetto” but I am very excited about it! Check it out!

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Wow! You guys always surprise me!

I feel like I keep thanking you guys, but thank you for continuing to spread the word about my blog and faithfully reading my posts. I never expected to feel so much love and support from all you! Thank you to all 700 of you!! WOW!

Internet high five!

Back on the mat!

I’m thrilled to be back doing yoga this morning! I have been on the road and away from home for the past few days, which was a lot of fun, but there was a lot of sitting involved. My muscles have become very tight so it was wonderful to loosen them up! Since I have been back the dogs haven’t left my side and were very intrigued when I was doing my stretches!

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