Me Time

I have notice that during the times when I am most stressed, I have neglected to spend time with myself. What I mean to say is, I am spending all of my energy on everyone else except myself. I, like many of you, don’t have much time to spare during the course of my day, but I have been trying to squeeze a few minutes in for myself at the end of each day this week. I have been doing yoga in the evenings, and get to bed a little earlier so I can loose myself in a good book. 

Over the next few weeks I am going to continue to focus on putting more energy into myself so I am not so spent by the time I am needed to focus my energies on others.

For those of you who struggle with this same dilemma, how to you schedule time for yourself? 

Looking beyond the storm

Today, during my bible study, I was reminded that we need to look behind our storm, and not allow Life’s circumstances to push us off track. There are always going to be external conflicts that will threaten our inner peace, and we must work hard to look past the conflicts and find happiness with what we have already received. 

As an anxiety sufferer, I have found it incredibly prudent to protect what little inner peace I have on any given day. There are days when my anxiety is so high that I only have peace the size of a mustard seed. However, on those days I cling to that seed of peace and focus on my blessings. I have a wonderful husband. A loving family. A great job. Three snugly dogs. Whatever it may be, I think about that instead of my anxiety. I cannot, and will not, allow anxiety to take over my life again. I have been given an incredible life, and I want to always remember that. 

We can work together and encourage one another to stay positive in dark times and find the joy in each moment. Don’t ever give up hope. Each day we have is a blessing.

Love you all! Have a wonderful night! 

The not so perfect life

Is my life perfect? Not by any stretch of the imagination. I have scrapes, scars and baggage that often slows me down. However, I have discovered that love covers all imperfections. God has given me and incredible family and they have been there during my darkest, and most anxious, days. They have watched me fight the battles of my mental disorders, and have never once left my side. I am loved because of my imperfection. Because I am not defined by the blemishes in my life, but by my heart. Anxiety has not defeated me because my heart is full of joy and peace in the face of my trials. 

Purhaps we need to redefine what perfection is? God, and those who truly love us, don’t love us conditionally. They make a decision everyday to continue showering us with love no matter what we do. That sounds pretty perfect to me!

Anxiety? What anxiety?!

My victory today, came in the form of surviving, without anxiety, riding in the back seat of a two door car! Let me fill you in on the details:

On my ride home from Las Vegas, my husband, brother and I were all traveling in a two door car, and being the smallest, I had to sit in the back. Sounds ok, right? Not so much… One of my anxiety triggers is riding in the back of a two door car. This scenario has become a trigger because, in my anxious mind, if we were in a crash, I would be trapped. Without having easy access to a door, I feel very anxious. 

 HOWEVER! Once we were situated in the car and ready to go, I felt ZERO anxiety! I feel like I made it over a huge hurdle today! 

Victory can be accomplished even if it is only in small moments. 

  

Good morning

No matter what happened yesterday, today is a new day. A chance to start over. To let go of the hurt you have been carrying and start fresh. We cannot let the weight of our past drag us down any longer. We must shed the weight and start over! 

Today is a new day! 

In spite of how I feel

I feel I am being constantly reminded that I must move forward with positivity in spite of my feelings. Over the last few weeks I have felt defeated by stress and anxiety (mild), but God has been reminding me that feeling emotions is ok. It’s ok to be stressed, anxious, mad, and furious, but it is NOT OK to let those emotions control us and the way we live our lives. 

Emotions are normal and healthy. If we suppress them, we can run into problems both mentally and physically. We need to find a healthy way to express them and be able to move forward afterwards. It’s not alright for me to feel overwhelmed and instantly give up. However, I can be overwhelmed but express my feeling to those around me so I can continue to move forward. 

It is important for us to not beat ourselves up when we get upset or sad. It’s normal. It’s alright. Just don’t let it take over. 

A new week begins

We are on the edge of a new week. A clean slate to start again. Perhaps your week was filled with anxious and worried thoughts or taken over by negativity. However, it all starts fresh. 

The anxiety that I felt last week will not over shadow this week because I choose peace. I choose to see the silver lining. I have been struggling with self doubt in my new teaching position, but I am going to speak positively to myself and build my confidence instead of destroying it. God has given me the ability to do what I do and the freedom to choose either happiness or sadness. I choose happiness. I choose peace. I choose life. 

Panic Attack, how I love thee 

it has been almost exactly a year since my last panic attack (YAY)! On this very momentous occasion I have been thinking about how I handled my attacks when they came on. How did I cope with them when they happened to strike while I was in public? What did I do before I knew what they were?! From my experience I found the best way to deal with them is to just ride them out. To normalize them and remind myself that I’m not dying. 

These questions have been circling around my minds the last few days and I thought I would throw it out to all of you! How do YOU handle an attack? What are your coping skills? 

Our mission is to love 

I believe that we have been created to love those around us. To be there for those who are hurting, and celebrate with those who triumph. There seems to be a lot of division in the world today, and it is beginning to lead towards hatred. However, I believe love transcends all barriers. We must love those around us through our words as well as our actions. We may not agree, but it is vital that we continue to respect those around us. We must Allow love and understanding to guide our actions so we can show the love of Christ. 

Small things

Often when we think of happiness, we think of big things like houses, cars, money, and technology. However, while in the mist of my struggle with anxiety, I have realized that happiness and joy can be found in small things. Small victories. Holding my husband’s hand while watching our favorite movie together. Snuggling with my dogs after a stressful day. Even just having a great conversations with a friend can bring me emense happiness! 

These moments that erase all the anxiety from our minds, even just for a moment, are precious when we are in the heat of our anxious battle. We must remember to find these tiny moments and treasure them. 

Don’t forget to look around you and find your peice of happiness.