My Baby’s Developmental Update

Sorry It took me so long to finally post this information, but last week, we had my daughter’s four month developmental check after being released from her NICU stay and it went well! We are most worried about her weight, because right now her weight is not even on the preemie growth scale. So we are going to switch from breastmilk to primarily formula, with one bottle of breast milk a day. I am both excited and guilty about this change.

If I am honest, I HATE pumping! It takes so much time, and it is incredibly uncomfortable. I am looking forward to not having to do that anymore, but another part of me feels incredible guilt. I feel like I am suppose to be able to provide food for my daughter, but an unable to do it. Like something is wrong. Also, I think that during our NICU stay, pumping milk was the only way I could provide for her, so a part of me feels like I am no longer helping. I know that isn’t true, but that is the thought process that is taking over as I switch to formula.

The other thing we learned during our checkup is that our daughter is a month delayed with her gross motor skills. Since her weight is so low (it’s 9 pounds 5 ounces now! YAY) she is still somewhat stiff. Our homework is to do at least an hour of tummy/play time a day, which I’m sure many of you know, babies despise tummy time! However, as we have worked on tummy time this week, she is getting use to it and has been able to stay on her tummy for almost five minutes! YAY! Last week we couldn’t even do 30 seconds!

Through all of this chaos I am remembering that God is in control, and he has a plan for my baby girl. She is healthy, and that is what matters. Thank you for following along with my story! I am going to try and update more often 🙂 I promise!

OH! And for those of you who read about my anxiety, things have been pretty calm. If there was ever a time in my life where I had a right to be anxious, it would be now, but for the most part, it has been under control. I still have my days of high anxiety, but I am able to take back control relatively easily. Praise God!

Positivity Challenge

Last night I posted about how I have been very anxious and negative over the past few weeks, and I proclaimed that this week I am going to only focus on positivity. 

It is very important for those of us with anxiety disorders, or any mental disorder, to not dwell on negative feelings. We are prone to feelings of despite, but we can combat them by not allowing them to bounce around in our minds. 

Today, I challenge you to look past the darkness and find the light. Even if it is only a sliver. Acknowledge the good in your life and little by little your mind will align with it. 

Me Time

I have notice that during the times when I am most stressed, I have neglected to spend time with myself. What I mean to say is, I am spending all of my energy on everyone else except myself. I, like many of you, don’t have much time to spare during the course of my day, but I have been trying to squeeze a few minutes in for myself at the end of each day this week. I have been doing yoga in the evenings, and get to bed a little earlier so I can loose myself in a good book. 

Over the next few weeks I am going to continue to focus on putting more energy into myself so I am not so spent by the time I am needed to focus my energies on others.

For those of you who struggle with this same dilemma, how to you schedule time for yourself? 

The start of something new!

I finally received my essential oils, via mail, earlier this week, and I am excited to dig into this! I have been doing a lot of reading (thru Pintrest) about the positive benefits of the oils and it has been facinating to learn.

 Tonight I am diffusing Lavander, Lemon and Peppermint to promote good health and soothe us (husband and dogs included) to sleep! 
Have any good oil recipes? Let me know and I would love to try them out! 


Night sweats?

I know this is TMI, but Ever since I can remember I have woken up in the middle of the night completely soaked. The seats around me would look like someone poured water on them and I would have to change my pjs. This doesn’t happen every night, but it seems to happen mostly when I am in a deep sleep. Apparently, this also happens to my mom And brother. 

I never thought anything about this until my husband saw an ad in the newspaper for a dr who specializes in night sweats. When I googled it (for a woman with anxiety, I know Google is risky lol) it was all related to menopause. I don’t think that is what it is, considering how young I was when it all started. 

Do any of you get night sweats? And what do you do to help? 


Anxious today

I think my stress levels are catching up with me and I am feeling very anxious tonight. I just need to lay in bed and relax. Cuddle my puppies, snuggle my husband and read my book. I need to remember that I may be uncomfortable right now, but I am not always going to be that way. It will pass and I will be stronger! I just have to hang on! 

It will pass! 

Anxiety update

Since I am a year into truly understanding my anxiety, I have built up a great support group of friends to help me during difficult times. Since school has been back in session, and my new teaching position differs from what I have done in the past, my anxiety has been fluctuating drastically. Up until Monday it was very high because I felt like I was starting over in career. There was so much to do and I felt overwhelmed. Luckily, my friends and family were there to encourage me and build me up. When I was high,  anxiously, I let them know I was struggling so they were there to help me. 

It is my goal, this year, to be sure I am taking care of myself so my anxiety continues to become more and more manageable. 😀