As I have been reflecting on my anxiety journey, I have realized my healing process would not have been as successful without the love and support of my family and close friends. When dealing with any sickness, mental/emotional/physical, it is vital to surround ourselves with people who can support us when we are feeling weak. When left alone, our minds wonder to dark places and we can retreat into isolation. I speak from experience.
When I first started battling my anxiety, many years ago, I did not understand what was happening to me. I only knew that I did not feel like myself and I wanted to be as far away from people as I could. I was embarrassed about what I had become, and I did not want them to see me withdrawn and over-shawded by sickness. As I look back now, I realize hiding was the worst thing I could have done. Had I been able to reach out, perhaps I could have saved myself years of worry. I do not regret any of my journey, because it has molded me into the woman I am today, but I wish I would have been strong enough to reach out to those around me.
You may currently be in a situation where you feel ashamed or embarrassed about what is going on in your life, and you feel that reaching out to others would be the ultimate humiliation. I can personally tell you that I know exactly how you feel. Mental disorders can be a dark and lonely struggle. Even though there really isn’t a cure for mental disorders, it doesn’t have to mean you have to live your life in the shadows. Take the first step towards healing and reach out to someone. There is no shame in admitting you can’t do it alone. There is more strength in seeking help than fighting alone.
It will get better. This is not the end. You are strong. You are a fighter. You will win!
The stars are shining bright in the sky,
And My dogs are cuddle up close by.
I pull the covers up snugly to my chin,
In an effort to keep cold away from my skin.
My eyelids grow heavy and and tired,
I think the day has long since retired.
Time has gotten away from me,
I was deeply lost in my reading fantasy.
So I reach over and click off my light,
And settle in for a deep sleep tonight.
Tomorrow as we take time to honor and remember those who have fought for our country, remember that they are the reason we live freely. That have scarified their time, energy, blood, sweat, health and even their lives to ensure our great nation continues to prosper.
Our past and current military personnel have my highest regards and they inspire me to push myself to be the best I can be. I am proud to say my grandfather served in the front lines in Europe for 3 consecutive years during WWII, and my great uncle (basically my other grandpa) served in Korea during the Korean War.
Thank you to all of you who are serving, and have served, this great country. We would be nothing without you.
Facing an opposition head on can be a terrifying and intimidating idea for those who of us who struggle with anxiety. The mere thought of going against the fear that consumes our minds triggers tight chests and shortened breath! Speaking from experience, someone with anxiety would most likely prefer to go out of their way to avoid their fears instead of facing them.
In real life avoidance may not be possible. Opposition may be something we cannot hide from, so we have to decide to take back control. Our fears will no longer control us! We push onward in spite of the anxiety we feel.
Fear will not keep us from living our lives, it will only force us to be stronger!
Anxiety is strong,
But I am stronger.
It has a hold of my chest,
And my courage is put to the test.
Sometimes I feel I always live in fear,
But I know that Help is always near.
Tears steam softly down my skin,
This release of stress calms like zen.
I cannot let this beat me,
This disease will be kicked and flee!