Marriage

Fairy tales never show the dedication,

That is takes to make a marriage work.

A couple must learn to compromise,

Even when they drive each other bezerk!

It is not all rainbows and butterflies,

Sometimes it is held back tears.

But when love takes root and blossoms,

It will help us push past our fears.

My marriage is something I treasure,

A commitment made with my entire heart.

Through the bright sunny days and the dark,

My love and I will never part.

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Ready for a great week!

Well, my husband and I are back home from Phoenix and snuggled in our beds, after watching the Super Bowl. I don’t normally watch sports (other than having it on in the back ground), but I have to say it was a great game!

I am starting my week with a positive attitude and I am hoping to make the most of it. I am going to stay focused on the good and move on past the bad. I hope you all have a wonderful week!

The Anxious Wife

Having anxiety and being a good wife can be difficult. I know my anxiety can make me appear selfish. I get caught up in my own fear and worry and in the process forget about his needs. This has happened in the past so I am working to ensure this doesn’t become a regular occurrence. I want to be sure that my husband’s needs are met, however, I learned that if I do not take¬†care of myself first, then I am in condition to be Wife of the Year.

When I was lost to anxiety last year I saw no one else. I felt nothing but anxiety and could think of little more. My husband wasn’t even on my radar. During that time we drifted far apart, and the worst thing¬†about it was that I didn’t even notice. I was so wrapped up in myself that I lost sight of him. He was going through a lot in his life as well. Starting a new job, working towards his masters degree, and learning to manage his own anxiety while holding a position of leadership. I didn’t bother to reach out to him to support him. I only thought of how¬†anxious I was.

I may sound a little hard¬†on myself, however, it is reality. I don’t want to sugarcoat my behaviors. I think I needed a little Come To Jesus Talk. When I finally realized I needed help, and I got the help I needed was able to overcome my anxiety with the support of my family. It feels good to be able to help serve others instead of being trapped in my own anxiety.

I want to fulfill all of my husband’s needs and show him that he is truly loved. I am blessed to have a man who always stands beside me, in sickness and in health, and I will forever strive to return those vows. Anxiety or no Anxiety!

**P.S. Those rings in the picture are ours! He picked out the ring and I was so proud of him!**

2 year Anniversary!

Today marks my 2 year wedding anniversary! It’s almost impossible to believe that it has been two years! I have no idea how that happened! These past 24 months have been wonderful! It hasn’t all be rainbows and butterflies, but it has been honest and real. Each struggle we have encountered, we have grown stronger and closer together!

Happy Anniversary!

Anxiety! You have nothing on me!

Anxiety! You have nothing on me!
You may follow me everywhere I go,
But I am the one who controls you!

There may be moments where your cold grip wrenches onto my chest,
But I can get rid of you!

I am no longer afraid of you.
Bring it!

How best to support my husband?

Currently, my husband is getting his masters degree in educational leadership, and I am so proud of all the hard work he has invested into the program. He goes to work all day, as the Dean of Students at our middle school, and then comes home and works on his homework until he goes to bed. This has been going on for a year and a half.

To add to his stress and success, This past Monday, he began working as the Vice Principal! He is now filling the role of Vice Principal and the Dean of Students, all while he is balancing the final 16 weeks of his Masters. Talk about a crazy schedule!

Obviously with a schedule this jam packed and overloaded, we do not get a lot of quality time. Of course it is incredibly difficult for me, but I have been working on understanding the stress and strain he has been under. I noticed I had been arguing a lot with him about how he doesn’t have time for me, but I need to remember that he is doing all of this work to provide for me and support the dreams and aspirations I have for my future.

My question is, have any of you ever been in this situation? I feel out of my element and I do not know how best to support him. What are your thoughts?

Thank you!

Understanding and acceptance

As sufferers of mental illness, isn’t understanding and acceptance what we crave? Our dream is to tell people about our illness and not be judged. Not be scoffed. Not be stigmatized. Well all want to be loved for who we are as a human being, NOT for our illness.

Find people who love you: the full package. Surround yourself with individuals who don’t intimidate you to be someone you are not. Find love and acceptance. Don’t settle for less. You deserve more.