I think my stress levels are catching up with me and I am feeling very anxious tonight. I just need to lay in bed and relax. Cuddle my puppies, snuggle my husband and read my book. I need to remember that I may be uncomfortable right now, but I am not always going to be that way. It will pass and I will be stronger! I just have to hang on!
It will pass!
Since I am a year into truly understanding my anxiety, I have built up a great support group of friends to help me during difficult times. Since school has been back in session, and my new teaching position differs from what I have done in the past, my anxiety has been fluctuating drastically. Up until Monday it was very high because I felt like I was starting over in career. There was so much to do and I felt overwhelmed. Luckily, my friends and family were there to encourage me and build me up. When I was high, anxiously, I let them know I was struggling so they were there to help me.
It is my goal, this year, to be sure I am taking care of myself so my anxiety continues to become more and more manageable. š
After these last two days with my students, I am feeling incredibly exhausted! However, in spite of my exhaustion, I am feeling completed fulfilled and refreshed. I feel accomplished and completely satisfied after being able to spend time with my students. I realize that I have a deep passion for teaching and building positive relationships with my kids. So many of my students come from a home that doesn’t provide them with love and respect, so I try to demonstrate those qualities while they are in my classroom. I feel so blessed to be able to be in a profession that aligns with my passion!
While my students were incredible over the last few day, my anxiety was a little off kilter. Since this is my first year in several years being back in a classroom of my own (since I was previously a special Ed co-teacher) I felt anxious about my ability to be successful on my own. It was very intense, since I am not use to teaching without a co-teacher, but I made it through. My anxiety was very high this morning because of a mix up in scheduling, however, I was able to come back down. It is wonderful to be able to control my anxiety instead of being control by it!
I am looking forward to next week and getting to know my students even more! I hope that my anxiety will be eased as I get further into the year and get use to being on my own.
I made it through my meeting without panic or incident! It ended up being very laid back and comfortable! I talked a lot and was very involved. I am getting more and more excited about this coming year!
It was such a wonderful victory to be able to see how far I have come with coping with my anxiety over the last four years. It was wonderful that I made it through without a single flicker of anxiety!
While, overall, I have been having a mostly anxiety free week, I have been experiencing low levels of anxious undercurrent about starting up this new school year.
The first three days of school are for us teachers to be trained on various changes and procedures and then the kids come Thursday.
My anxiety has been circling around the trainings. I couldn’t figure out why until tonight. My first year teaching I ended up having a slight panic attack during the staff meeting. I clearly remember having all 30 some staff members sitting in a circle with our principal talking about procedures. I vividly remember getting very hot and then my stomach feeling like it was going to dispel my breakfast. I spent nearly 20 minutes in the bathroom trying to calm down.
This experience was 4 years ago, and nothing like that has happened again, but obviously the feeling of apprehension still lingers. However, this time around I will have my husband on the administration staff so I will be able to have his presence as a comfort in case I were to experience an attack.
I am going to stay positive and remember the great things that are going on this year! Anxiety is not invited!
i know what it is like to feel utterly helpless. Lost. Out of control. Panicked. As if the world is passing by in a blur, and no matter how loud you cry out, no one hears you. You just want the pain to stop. To leave so you can feel normal again. Like the person you know you really are. In those darkest moments you wish you weren’t around. You would trade anything just to be someone else so you won’t feel the pain anymore. I know. I have been there.
Let me tell you: it gets better. Don’t be ashamed of what is going on, because you are not alone. Reach out and tell someone. I did, and now I can go an entire day, or even week, anxiety free! You can do it too. Just don’t give up.
Step into the rain
It washes you clean
Takes away the pain
And leads to possibilities unseen
Today I woke up with my good friend anxiety. I am not sure why I have it today, but nevertheless I am going to push onward and choose happiness today. Will it be more difficult than usual? Yes. But that does not mean that I am going to give up!
To all of you who are like me today and have unexplained, or explained anxiety: remember you control your thoughts and you can win the battle!
it has been almost exactly a year since my last panic attack (YAY)! On this very momentous occasion I have been thinking about how I handled my attacks when they came on. How did I cope with them when they happened to strike while I was in public? What did I do before I knew what they were?! From my experience I found the best way to deal with them is to just ride them out. To normalize them and remind myself that I’m not dying.
These questions have been circling around my minds the last few days and I thought I would throw it out to all of you! How do YOU handle an attack? What are your coping skills?
Often when we think of happiness, we think of big things like houses, cars, money, and technology. However, while in the mist of my struggle with anxiety, I have realized that happiness and joy can be found in small things. Small victories. Holding my husband’s hand while watching our favorite movie together. Snuggling with my dogs after a stressful day. Even just having a great conversations with a friend can bring me emense happiness!
These moments that erase all the anxiety from our minds, even just for a moment, are precious when we are in the heat of our anxious battle. We must remember to find these tiny moments and treasure them.
Don’t forget to look around you and find your peice of happiness.
The Persistent Platypus 