Today has been a very high anxiety day. However, I know it will pass and get better. I just have to stay strong and more forward.
Today was rough for me. The stress of my new teaching position caught up with me and I ended up crying in my husband’s office (he is my assistant principal). I have just been feeling very overwhelmed and almost a little bit like I am drowning. This is my fourth year teaching but teaching two grade levels, with four different subjects, plus writing IEPS for my students in special educating, is quickly making me stressed and very anxious. It almost feels like my first year all over again, except without the classroom management issues I just want to be sure that I do my job well and help provide the best education I can for my students.
Today it all felt like too much and I began to doubt in my abilities to do the job. I needed to unload emotionally so I could move on with the day. I felt better after my husband’s encouragement and the rest of my day went well. I did, however, still have moments of anxiety when I began to realize how much I still had to do in preparation but I am going to work on taking it one day at a time.
I think my stress levels are catching up with me and I am feeling very anxious tonight. I just need to lay in bed and relax. Cuddle my puppies, snuggle my husband and read my book. I need to remember that I may be uncomfortable right now, but I am not always going to be that way. It will pass and I will be stronger! I just have to hang on!
It will pass!