A new week approaches

It is, once again, time for a new week to begin. All the stresses and troubles of last week should be left in the past. If you had a rough and exhausting week, that doesn’t mean it will repeat this week. It is time to begin fresh. New. It is a Clean slate. Anxiety has taught me that every day, if not every
hour, is a chance to start over. A time to say I am no longer living in negativity, because I choose to be positive! This does not mean that conflict will not arise. It means that in the face of conflict you choose to rise above. Your circumstances do not effect your outcome! You decide your future, NOT those around you and NOT your past!

Every day brings a new beginning.

Anxiety healing allows us to live a full life!

Over these past few months, I have seen drastic changes in all areas of my life. First, my thoughts are so much clearer since they are not clogged up by the endless cycle of anxiety! Literally, all I could think about for months at a time, was anxiety. I know my husband, who is always so patient and understanding, was tired of hearing me talk about how I was so anxious. Since I have been taking some medication the chemicals in my brain are balanced out and I am able to focus on thinking about everything else! 🙂

I also have been having a lot of stress at work, but the positive kind of stress, and I have not had any anxiety! I have been given a lot of more responsibility and I have been leading my own department, planning lessons for other teachers, and mentoring. I am thriving in my career! I love feeling like myself again and living out my passion every day! Teaching!!

Last year when my anxiety was pushed into overdrive from a birth control I was taking, I never thought I would be normal again. I thought anxiety would always control me. I never imagined I could take control, and steer my life in the direction I wanted.

I do not believe that taking medication should be the only solution to anxiety. However, there are times when it is necessary. During those times, it is important to learn other coping skills, in addition to the meds, to help curb the anxiety. One of my good friends, who is a counselor, told me that medication allows our brain to become balanced enough so that we can use our coping skills instead of continually focusing on the panic of anxiety. That really was a great explanation. Also, exercise helps a lot and can help refocus the brain. Yoga has helped me learn how to breath through stress and it has really opened up my chest, which always tightens when my anxiety is high.

I full understand what it is like to be stuck in the darkest moments of anxiety. To feel panic rising through the body. I know what it is like to not be able to focus on the world around you because you are too terrified and stuck in your own thoughts. I have been there, and I’m sure I will be there again. Just remember that there is hope. Anxiety does not have to control your life! You are free to live the life you want. Anxiety Free (or well…under control) 🙂

I never want to fully grow up!

I grew up hearing my dad say that he was always going to be a child inside, and I admit that I have adopted this philosophy as I have grown into adulthood. I believe life should be about having childlike wonder. Standing out underneath the black nighttime sky and loosing yourself in the beauty of the stars. Running through puddles after a serious downpour. Riding on the front of a shopping cart while screaming and laughing up and down all of the aisles. I may have anxiety, but I never want to loose the playfulness that bubbles and brews inside of my soul. I love the feeling of releasing a loud and and unrestrained laugh when the weight of anxiety feels too much. It is healing 🙂

The world seems so much more interesting and entertaining when I view things as a child. I don’t want to ever let life beat me down to the point where I lose my wonder. I always want to find the beauty is just playing and forgetting about all the pressures that push down on me throughout the day. Today at work (teaching) I spent a lot of time laughing with the students and cracking corny jokes. When I was feeling myself get stressed out, I just refocused my energy onto the students and finding more ways to make our learning experience more fun.

So, I hope that you all are able to find the all the childlike wonder  that the world has to offer. Remember that even if you find yourself in tears, you can always  find your way back to laughing again. 🙂 Never let that inner child disappear. 

Hello Anxiety Free Day!!

Today I overcame an obstacle that I never thought I would have the strength to overcome! I went through the entire day with almost no anxiety! I will admit that for about 30 minutes had some anxious discomfort, but I was able to remember my my coping techniques and push through it quickly! Keeping a positive attitude, breathing deeply and remaining in prayer. Also, about 2 months ago I began taking a very small dosage of  anxiety medication to help even out what is functionally happening in my brain. It was a very difficult discussion to make. I struggled a lot with feeling weak and not wanting to depend on anything other than my own strength. However, I have been learning that admitting I needed something a little extra so I could get back to feeling like myself, shows courage and strength. My husband and my family have provided me with such amazing support system. I know I could never have come this far in my healing process without them. 🙂

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I am very proud of how my mind did not stick to the anxious thoughts and I was able to revert back to a positive mindset. There have been times in my past where I would remain constantly anxious for months at a time. I still have rough days, even with the medicine, but my good days far outweigh them. When I was younger, I never thought I would be able to live happily while still having this disorder. It feels wonderful to know that it is possible! It is possible for everyone!