The flow of feelings
Takes over my thoughts.
Sometimes it feels too much
With emotions so strong.
Love.
Fear.
Protectiveness.
Joy.
These all eb and flow
Through my mind
As I think of You.
My beautiful child.
Only you can ignite
Such strong emotions.
To fiercely love you
Every moment of the day.
And to destroy anything
That comes against you.
How crazy it is to be a mom.
But call me crazy!
I don’t want
Anything
Else.
It has been awhile since my last post, and I apologize! Things have been so crazy. Life certainly changes after having a child! I use to blog every night before bed. It was my favorite time of day! However, this habit has been replaced with giving a bubble bath, and getting warm cuddles before putting my beautiful daughter down for the night.
Recently, I have been reflecting on the changes I have experienced since Eisley came into the world. Just thinking about how my focus and energy output have realigned and how I am less self-focused than before.
Even though I am exhausted after work, I still make it a priority to sit on the ground and play with Eisley. I may be starving, but I make sure she has dinner before in eat my own. Instead of Netflix Binging I spend hours playing with toys and playing make believe.
Knowing now what sacrifices I would make as a mother, I wouldn’t change a thing! Yes, I do miss watching hours of television without being interrupted (or feeling guilty), and being able to eat a slice of pizza without being disturbed, BUT hearing my daughter laugh, and seeing her grow far outweighs those momentary pleasures. She is everything.
I never fully understood what parents meant when they said their child’s happiness means everything, but now I know. Those are not just words, they are powerful. My world has shifted to ensure that she has joy and love in her life. It’s no longer about me, and what I want. It is about her, and what she wants (without spoiling her too much, of course!)
I love being a mom!! It’s the greatest decision I have ever made. ❤️
The Persistent Platypus 