My Baby’s Developmental Update

Sorry It took me so long to finally post this information, but last week, we had my daughter’s four month developmental check after being released from her NICU stay and it went well! We are most worried about her weight, because right now her weight is not even on the preemie growth scale. So we are going to switch from breastmilk to primarily formula, with one bottle of breast milk a day. I am both excited and guilty about this change.

If I am honest, I HATE pumping! It takes so much time, and it is incredibly uncomfortable. I am looking forward to not having to do that anymore, but another part of me feels incredible guilt. I feel like I am suppose to be able to provide food for my daughter, but an unable to do it. Like something is wrong. Also, I think that during our NICU stay, pumping milk was the only way I could provide for her, so a part of me feels like I am no longer helping. I know that isn’t true, but that is the thought process that is taking over as I switch to formula.

The other thing we learned during our checkup is that our daughter is a month delayed with her gross motor skills. Since her weight is so low (it’s 9 pounds 5 ounces now! YAY) she is still somewhat stiff. Our homework is to do at least an hour of tummy/play time a day, which I’m sure many of you know, babies despise tummy time! However, as we have worked on tummy time this week, she is getting use to it and has been able to stay on her tummy for almost five minutes! YAY! Last week we couldn’t even do 30 seconds!

Through all of this chaos I am remembering that God is in control, and he has a plan for my baby girl. She is healthy, and that is what matters. Thank you for following along with my story! I am going to try and update more often 🙂 I promise!

OH! And for those of you who read about my anxiety, things have been pretty calm. If there was ever a time in my life where I had a right to be anxious, it would be now, but for the most part, it has been under control. I still have my days of high anxiety, but I am able to take back control relatively easily. Praise God!

Looking beyond the storm

Today, during my bible study, I was reminded that we need to look behind our storm, and not allow Life’s circumstances to push us off track. There are always going to be external conflicts that will threaten our inner peace, and we must work hard to look past the conflicts and find happiness with what we have already received. 

As an anxiety sufferer, I have found it incredibly prudent to protect what little inner peace I have on any given day. There are days when my anxiety is so high that I only have peace the size of a mustard seed. However, on those days I cling to that seed of peace and focus on my blessings. I have a wonderful husband. A loving family. A great job. Three snugly dogs. Whatever it may be, I think about that instead of my anxiety. I cannot, and will not, allow anxiety to take over my life again. I have been given an incredible life, and I want to always remember that. 

We can work together and encourage one another to stay positive in dark times and find the joy in each moment. Don’t ever give up hope. Each day we have is a blessing.

Love you all! Have a wonderful night! 

Focus Forward

Today may already be filled with stress and anxiety caused by the endless demands of you to-do lists. It may feel overwhelming, but I am here to tell you that you can turn it around. Even though you may have a to-do list a mile long, you can still feel at peace. 

Change your mindset. Think positive and know that you will get through it and be stronger! You can do it! Don’t give into thoughts of anger, frustration and bitterness! Flip your thoughts and take back control of your day!