Anxiety is Winning…

Things are pretty rough right now. My anxiety is taking over. It is consuming me.

It is so hard to fight sometimes, but I know I can’t give up. However, right now, it feels like I will never be able to win.

My daughter and husband are the only ones I feel like I can rely on right now. I know they love me as I am.

Right now I feel as if most of the friendships I have had are failing. I have a lot of negative energy coming my way. I feel like I can’t do anything right and my friends are over me.

I feel like I’m drowning. I wish I didn’t have anxiety. I wish I could have peace without trying so hard. Things had been so good, but the last month, two months, have slowly been getting worse.

I am just overwhelmed.

22 thoughts on “Anxiety is Winning…

  1. I know those feelings. When those thoughts try to take over for me, I force myself to completely immerse myself in the moment, I listen to the sounds around me, the feelings of my clothes on my skin or my feet on the ground or the wind on my face, the smells, the feeling of cold air coming through my nose and warm air leaving. Doing so helps put you in a mindset that creates space around the thoughts and reminds you of the beauty of life and existance. 🙂 peace and love

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  2. You are unique. You rely on your husband and daughter- they are your closest family- they are the most important people in your life. Don’t let in the negative energy by focusing on yourself, your family and rejecting the negativity. It will pass x

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  3. I can empathise completely as I am similarly going through a difficult time with anxiety. I hope that you get the help and support you need; you are strong enough to get through it xx

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  4. Have you ever heard the term, Fake it until you make it? Many people don’t have what you have (not the anxiety part) so I’m suggesting head out tomorrow and act like nothing is stressing you. Otherwise, I don’t know what is making you anxious however, I hope you can put it behind you and enjoy life. Cheers,H


  5. Been there; I found that actively distracting myself from thinking about my diagnosis provided a short reprieve from anxiety and depression. Contrarily, “thinking out loud” or speaking whatever came to mind helped me feel like I got it all out there, like it couldn’t hurt me if it wasn’t still in my brain. It helped, for the most part, and after a few months of coping strategies like these, I was able to come back and continue my treatment. You’re allowed to take breaks in the recovery process, and I don’t think many people realize just how taxing and terrible it can be. Keep on keepin’ on, dude.

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  6. Sorry you are struggling. I have a hard time making and keeping friends too. I think family is so important to rely on. They will always be there when friends come and go. Know that they love and care about you no matter what. Can you talk to someone about how you are feeling? Maybe a counselor?

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  7. I can really sympathise with you-just a few months back I went through a particularly difficult patch with my anxiety, and ended up off work for three months. I felt as though I was drowning and totally overwhelmed by life. The thing that really helped me, was remembering to be kind to myself. Remember that it is okay to not be okay all of the time, and it is absolutely okay to ask for help when we need it. On days where I felt a little more positive, I got outside and took long walks, or drove to the seaside just so I could sit or walk by the sea. Being near the water, breathing in the fresh air has always been incredibly soothing for me, and helps me to take time to collect my thoughts. On the harder days, I would let myself sleep a little longer, or rest a little more, if that was what I needed. It was really new territory for me, but it was a huge learning curve as well. Being kind to ourselves is so important! I really hope you feel much better soon!

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  8. You are on the right path by trusting God. This is a new season in your life and with that comes change. Don’t ever let anyone bring self-doubt to you or make you think any less of yourself. They will not matter in the big picture. They will be a speck in your memories. You’ve got this and you’re rocking it!

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  9. We all want everyone to understand us and to accept us all of the time. And that is an unrealistic expectation. Anyone who judges you for who you are is not worth your time as much as that hurts. Don’t take it personally. It’s not you, it’s them. You will find those who can accept you for who you are and the wonderful person you are. We don’t always have to agree on everything. That is what makes us unique and human. Those that appreciate that are a dime a dozen, so to speak.

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