Today was a very emotionally draining day. This morning I got a call from my father letting me know my grandma had passed away last night. She was 92 and had lived a very full life, so I am happy for the life she was able to live. She was a very strong woman and had taken up leadership roles and took part in politics when that was not something women did. She did not let her gender keep her from doing what she wanted. She followed her passions and made her way in life, no matter what anyone said. I have lots of fun memories with my grandma and I will always treasure them.
I hate that I am so far from my family during this time, and I wish there was more I could do to help. So in the mean time, I am sending out my prayers and continuing to call/text to be emotionally supportive to my father.
On a slight deviation from my grandmother, my emotional day continued when I came seconds away from relapsing into another panic attack. Currently I am out of town at At a work conference, so I do not have my own vehicle. We have been given a huge white van to drive and none of us have much experience driving large vehicles. The woman who drove it, whom I am thankful for, did a good job handling it, but we got stuck in horrendous traffic. We are not use to traffic because own town is tiny so we never think about those sorts of delays. Two of my panic arrack triggers is traffic jams and feeling sick. While we were stuck in the traffic, I started to get car sick! Both of my triggers were occurring at the same time and I started to feel my body slip into the beginning stages of panic. My arms went numb and I started to get real hot and fidgety. I closed my eyes and tried to stay positive, and I also told my close friend who happened to be one of the ladies on this trip with me. She then tried to encourage me and helped me take my mind off the encroaching panic. We ended up being stuck In traffic for over an hour and a half. Our trip was only 18 miles… However, the best part is that I never did have that panic attack!
Needless to say, I feel very emotionally drained from the death of my grandmother and fighting off the panic attack. Tomorrow is a new day and I will see it in a new light. Grandma is in a wonderful place and has been reunited with the love of her life! And my panic was beaten and I can do it again if I need to!!
Goodnight!
I am sorry for your loss, but I believe too that your granny is in a beautiful loving place looking down on you cheering you on! đ
I am so proud of you for being strong through it all!
Have a beautiful peaceful sleep and take good care of yourself!
Hugs! â¤
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What a day, sister! Very sorry about your grandmother’s passing. Proud of you for fighting off the anxiety attacks. Especially on such a day.
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Thank you! It was rough, yet i was proud of myself
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I am sorry to hear about your loss. Sometimes, one just wants to be left alone. I know that is the case with me. People ask over and over how one is doing. It is easy to get angry. It is easy to lose sight that people that people are there for you.
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my condolences on the loss of your grandmother. It sounds like she had a wonderful life and now has gone to glory! You are a very strong and courageous woman to handle grief and panic in one day. As one who also suffers from panic attacks I know how freeing it can be to stop them in their tracks. Be blessed.
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You are in my prayers. Hoping today is a better day for you.
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Condolences and congratulations
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Lol thank you
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My condolences.
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I’m sorry to hear about your grandma. You and your family will be in my prayers.
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Thank you. That means a lot
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Sorry for your loss. I’m glad you were able to fight off your panic attack though.
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Sorry for your loss. Remember the good times.
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I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your grandfather. Loosing a loved one is NEVER easy!!
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Just wanted to join the rest of your fans in letting you know how sorry I am for losing your grandmother. 92 is amazing and I’m glad she had such a full life! Hope today brings more restoration for you so you don’t feel as drained – take extra care of yourself! Xo
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Thank you so much!
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So very sorry to hear about your grandmother. At the same time, kudos to you for knowing what to do to fight off your panic attack. Here’s to better days ahead.
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I’m sorry to hear about your grandma.
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What a horrible day. I’m so sorry for your loss but good for you on conquering a panic attack! It’s especially impressive given everything you had going on.
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Thank you! I feel tired from it all though.
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I can only imagine. Maybe you can grab some rest over the weekend?
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Yes! I dont have to work on Monday, so that will be fantastic
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My condolences bud.
Regardless of everything, it sounds like your grandmother have made a lot of difference in a lot of people’s life, as well as your family’s and definitely had a beautiful life with little to no regrets.
Her passing will be hard to take but I hope that you are not just sad but also proud of her as well, not just for the choices she made in life and how she lived it but also, how she was able to stay healthy and live to the age of 92!
Be proud of your grammy because I sure am proud of her đ
Stay strong!
Your pal,
David Long
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Thank you so much for your kindness đ
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RIP to your Grandma.
Sorry for your loss
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Thank you for your kind words
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